I wrote today…
Some little bombs…
Then, I started crying.
In my hand a glass of wine
Semi-full with tears,
Silence around.
An argument some minutes ago
Left me speechless
How much hard feelings,
Misunderstandings,
Badness
Can be hidden in a soul…
Love is laying down, dead
Murdered by the knife of misery.
Covered by question marks
And doubts.
Day is bright
But I can not see
Only shadows around.
Whys are flying asking answers
None to say a word of support
I waited a message
A signal of life
A touch of hope
A smile of wish
Nothing…
All are absent
Where are you??
That frozen feeling again
Answered to my calling
The emptiness
The dearth
I’m feeling weak
I’m feeling dead
I can not see clearly
Tears and shadows
Darkness
It is hard to feel outsider
A stranger in their midst
Of people life
It is hard to see
Your life in a mirror
Slipping as water among your fingers
With no present
With no future
My only fortune
Some tacky dreams
Mussy, stamping and fading
Dreams…
What a word!!!
Plans…
What an invention!!!
Dust in tearful eyes
A tale for lunatics
The daemon Hope yelling
Yelping for waiting
To wait what???
A borrowed love?
An uncertain opportunity?
Some unwritten words
Some unspoken thoughts
To wait what???
The time elapsed
Days are coming to a dead line
What a waterfall!
My inner self is about to explode
Demands and duties
Pressed pain,
Days of patience,
Night of thinking,
Decides and plans
All mixed up, crowed
Wanting to expand…
Where is the exit????
It is so dark in these dungeons
No air to breath
No rope to follow
And the whys around
Screaming and howling
Beheading the shrinking answers…
The rough sea of thoughts.
It seems there is only one solution
That which is swirling in the mind:
To run, to sail!
An open sea maybe leads me in a port
A calm one, hidden and safe
An island of Hope
A restful bright place
Where I can hide my heart from myself
In a secure hug
Dreams again
The tales of a hopeless mind!
© Titania2008
